contemporary art museum on oahu

I was currently on Oahu, for an MRI... I saw an art exhibition of Fay Ku (New York) who greatly inspired me and opened this current block of my psyche and creativity. She explores the dualities of the human condition as balancing counterparts. Her art comes straight from her experiences and how her soul draws on it. A few of her works portrayed such pain I was drawn to it, as well as her powerful use of materials. I realize, with the help from both Fay Ku's art and my dear friend/yoga instructor/artist Ann back in the desert, I was focusing on my outer reality, here on this island of paradise, tropical breeze and surrounded in the comfort of turquoise... I was trying to paint paradise, happy things not be negative, everyone constantly telling me " happy thoughts positive thinking, hooray visualization you need" that I was not looking at my own inter-reality. I kept going out, fighting going in. I didn't want to go to ugly and bad. We are not acculturated to explore this inner-reality. It is the artist, the yogi, the spirit who remind us and acknowledge to turn inward. this is nothing new, yet I didn't see this for all these months in pain... am surprised how I did not connect with this on my own. this new place has drawn me outward, who wants to think about pain here... I am reminded I am in need to draw more in as much, even more, then I am drawn out. Now I can hope to create again, yes I can and will and it's okay if it is ugly and painful, no one needs to look at it and if people don't to see my pain its okay. It is who I am now even here in paradise. Mahalo Fay, Mahalo Ann. aloha...hozho.